I miss reading. Yeah, you know. Words on a page. Words that someone else wrote. Words that provide an escape. Basically, the reason why I started writing in the first place.
I used to read on my Kindle before bed every night. It’s how I discovered Micalea Smeltzer and Jamie McGuire, Addison Moore and Kendall Ryan. I love their books, and I’m so glad to have found them. But now the problem is, one of my favorite pastimes is the same one that I never seem to have time for anymore.
I’m a full-time author, which means that I spend every day at a laptop working on my next love story. And it’s hard sometimes, like today for example. The words wouldn’t flow, and my male lead wouldn’t open up to me the way he usually does. It felt like another case of writer’s block, which I seem to be getting a lot lately.
Then take Monday. I wrote 10,000 words in one day. And they are actually words I’m proud of! Not drivel that needs to be hacked and edited in the review process. But the words exactly as my character would say them if the pen were in her hand instead of mine.
I guess all I’m trying to say is that I have a love of fiction. Something that I’m only able to spend time with in the writer sense as of late. But if you ask any author, we were all readers first. There was one book or one story that inspired us to write one of our own.
For me it was Twilight.
I have a hard cover copy of Stephenie Meyer’s latest release, The Chemist, lying around somewhere in my room. I would love to read it. But I don’t know when I’ll ever have the time. I feel like the TBR List in my head is piling up so high that I may never read again.
The novel I’m currently working on is called An Accident and releases at the end of March. It’s sweet and passionate and intense. Maybe to a degree that all of my other books haven’t been before. I really love this couple, and it has been a privilege to tell their story.
But right now, I am ready for someone else to tell me a story.
Today, Brenna Aubrey released Worth Any Cost, a Contemporary Romance novel that I have been anxious to read since the moment I found out it was coming soon. It’s the fourth book about Adam Drake and Mia Strong, beloved characters that have got to be some of the best as far as love stories are concerned. I really can’t wait to read this book, but I haven’t finished the third one yet. You see, I’ve been neglecting my relationship with reading and books.
Not in the creation sense, of course. I’m writing new ones every day.
But I’m missing a vital element of the whole process.
Great books have always been my greatest muse. They are what inspire me and make me want to write love stories of my own. I really need that part of the creative process, and for the better part of the new year, it has been seriously lacking.
As I finish up this blog post, it is nearing 11 PM on a Tuesday night. I could stay up and write like I did the night before. I’ve always been a night owl. The words come easier than in the daylight hours. But despite all that, I’m not going to stay up writing tonight.
No. I’m going to get in bed, turn on my bedside lamp and spend some time with Adam and Mia. I’m going to finish that 3rd book by Brenna Aubrey called At Any Moment, and I’m going to savor every word.
Maybe it is the writer in me that can’t stop making up stories of her own.
Maybe it is the reader in me that can’t help wanting to cherish and appreciate and experience the words someone else wrote.
The words that I’ll never be able to write.
The words that make me want to be a better writer.
The words that make me feel alive.
So, the moral of this late night off-the-cuff blog post?
Sometimes, you just need to curl up with a good book.
And tonight, I plan on doing exactly that.